This weightloss/fitness journey is not easy, it’s not easy for me too. If I say this everybody around me will be shocked because I enjoy my workouts and I enjoy the food choices I make. I have no issue with eating a fruit for dessert or planning my day around my workouts...my issue seems to be the other end of the spectrum I cannot skip a workout. I used to work out 6 days a week now finally I have cut it down to 5 days a week after being forced to by Michelle but all 5 days are intense workouts even though I don’t do the same thing every day. I know a lot of people who will think this is perfect and it is perfect if everything else in my life goes as planned.
There have been days when I have not eaten enough because I was busy with something else but still gone ahead and done my workout. I know without fuel either my workouts will suffer or I will get injured but I have still gone ahead and done it. When I am injured I can’t take a break. I might reduce my intensity change my workout days but it is a struggle for me to actually skip a workout.
Last week I pulled a muscle in my back and I had to be forced by Michelle and T to not working out. I was really miserable, I was cranky, I was moody...I knew what right thing to do was but it was very difficult.
Finally over the weekend I sat down to handle this problem after an argument about all this with T
Why is extensive working out harmful?
1. My muscles are always sore because of which I pull my muscles very easily.
2. My maximum intensity keep dipping that’s because I cannot physically keep up when my muscles are not really getting time to repair
3. For the time and effort I put in the results are not as expected.I feel like I am stuck at the same level.My fitness level is not really improving.
Why I do what I know is harmful for me?
The first thing that comes to my mind is fear!!! I get scared of going back to who I used to be. I get worried about going back to not enjoying exercising, going back to not being able to run and going back to my starting weight. I feel I have finally reached a stage where I don’t have to force myself to workout instead I workout because I enjoy it but I know I was this person who would cry to enter the gym what if I go back to being that person??this fear stops me from taking breaks.
The other thing that stops me from ever taking a break is the feeling of not yet being good enough. Over time my goals have changed but somehow in my mind I can only see my new fitness goals which are very far away at this point and I blindly believe hard work, consistency will get me to those goals so I feel if I stop I will not reach my goals...
What can I do to keep moving forward?
To overcome my fear of slipping into bad habits I am going to be accountable to somebody (T specifically) so if it looks like I am overdoing it or at any point I’m making an excuse, skipping my workouts for no valid reason I will have somebody point it out immediately before I go spiralling down and reach my starting point.
I am making a very detailed goal list. So I no longer have a list which says being able to run, instead I will break it down to being able to run 20K in a specific time. This way I will see my improvements and tick them off before moving to another random goal.
Most importantly I will keep reminding myself : The reason I workout is to get fit and healthy. If I keep working out even when I am tired at some point my hard work is not going to be helping me move forward instead it could be one of my biggest obstacles.
Working hard is good but working hard in the right direction is important
Hopefully keeping these two things in my mind will help me get my exercise level to a point where I am improving and not getting injured so frequently.
If any one of you have faced similar problem I would love to know how you handled it? I hope answering these 3 questions can really help you decide your workouts too
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