Appreciating little joys

Staying away from home has changed me so much, I love being on my own, I feel strong independent and all grown up...but then there are those days when I really miss everything and everybody from back home.. I chose to be here, I have T with me, I have a great job and I love my life here :) so what do I miss? I miss old times...I miss small things like just having a cup of tea with my parents, watching hindi serials with my mom or just talking to my sister...I even miss my fan and my room. I can’t believe what staying away from home does to your thoughts...I miss things I never in 1000 years thought I would.

When this missing wave hits me I think I should go back and then I realise just like what Tanvii wrote in one of her posts (it was like she read my mind) I miss those days which can never come back...my friends have moved to different places, my sister will soon finish university and do her own thing...Everybody is busy with their life and even when I was there  I think I would be too busy to appreciate anything/anyone...I think I used to spend even less time with my family. Being far away I realise their importance and have stopped taking my loved ones for granted.

Now this is home. Going back is fun but it does not feel the same. Being away has made me a better person. I’m learning to handle my life on my own... (I have T with me and my family/friends are always a call away but still I feel more independent). I have tried things I never would have thought of in my wildest imagination, I have made mistakes and learnt from them...I’m making new friends (not many...but I will get there) at the end of the day I’m usually happy...it’s just sometimes memories creep in and make me want to go back in time. Things were a lot simpler the only complication in life was what clothes to wear and what food to eat...

So you might ask what was the point of this post?? Don’t worry it’s not only about venting..

Like I said I miss things that I took for granted, so from now on I’m going to try and appreciate life a little more not just rush through it..I’m starting by telling all the people I love how much they mean to me....(most will call me crazy or might think I’m depressed) but I'm going to do it. I’m also going to appreciate the time I spend with anybody I love (Family/friends/extended family...) rather than rushing through it to make it back in time for one of my favourite TV series..

Have you ever felt this way? What did you do?

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Tanvee